Me, My insomnia and You

When insomnia plagues my soul, & my soul can’t seem to find the rest it needs, & I have you right next to me, trust me.. I’m as blessed as father Abraham was!! I’d watch U sleep. Listen to the sound of your breath. Glide on the pitch of your snores. Smile endlessly & marvel at the INTENSITY of your ENTIRETY. I’d evaluate every bit of you & unceasingly take in every lil detail. This is my chance to know you.. Yes it is. Know you in a way you don’t know yourself & never will. You’d never watch yourself sleep.. Not in this life. I’d swell with excitement and play with your hair. Somehow.. You’d twitch & see me watching you. You’d open those beautiful eyes gently & I’d help you peel off the crust & peck that forehead. You’d be sad that I can’t sleep. But I’d tell you ‘fuck that baby, I’m happy I can’t. I have you to adore’. You’d kiss me, won’t you? Of course. I always tell you I love the taste of your staleness. It’s weird to you, but it is what it is. When you love people, and they don’t ask ‘How can you love this about me?’ up your game yo! Make them feel like gods! Love the shittiest details mehn! And I’d say, ‘you didn’t snore too loudly today’. You’d say ‘Hey, I didn’t even snore at all!’. I’d give you that what-do-u-know look. ‘You snored, you did. But like always, it was symphony to my soul. I was trying to hum to its inconsistent pattern’. And you’d laugh. And say ‘oh my God!’.. And I’d laugh too. And tighten my embrace & you’d lean in. Fully. And whatever happens next is not my fault, neither is it yours. & then, maybe after hitting climax, (after you though).. I’d be too exhausted & I’d finally get to crash with you still wrapped up in my arms like the foil on some expertly made shawarma. And I’d smile as I drift calmly into utter unconsciousness. I’d never understand how someone like me can be so blessed with so much happiness. I’d whisper ‘I love you’ sleepily into your ears. You’d say ‘I love you t…’ but the ‘TOO’ won’t come out fully. Sleep whisked you away before you delivered your speech. I’d chuckle. You just sleep too easily.